Eve Rounds

27 days ago

i lost you
so suddenly too suddenly
your blue eyes in a constant state of near tear
because you loved
life
giving
us
so much too much
to contain your emotions
and why would you
you’d seen it all
you’d done it all
you’d had it all
your ever expanding self awareness
our circular acceptance and evolution
present
intentional
real
i love you

this hurts
my fingers shake
my breath chokes me
forever proud that you are my dad

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but ok but

write some poems that i can give him ok (but they’ll all be about the hims) good idea bad idea no good twinning and losing

a 5 7 5 for e

peering through thick glass your back to me is waiting any news at all? running down broad steps into your brotherly arms crying without breath!

incircles

is it the ticking of the third hand or the faucet dripping onto discount bulk blueberries both measuring time “going in circles” as he would

a poem about you for you (and you)

you are your own though your temperament reminds me of him your head is more ripe mango while his was more soft plum my love

i don’t even know

how long it’s been. haven’t been counting days haven’t counted backwards on the calendar. haven’t bothered to reread my own words. haven’t been missing you

the five senses

your blue eyes and crooked lippy smile which i inherited that tiny soft bristle brush for your basically bald head the white corvette a campfire cards