Eve Rounds

27 days ago

i lost you
so suddenly too suddenly
your blue eyes in a constant state of near tear
because you loved
life
giving
us
so much too much
to contain your emotions
and why would you
you’d seen it all
you’d done it all
you’d had it all
your ever expanding self awareness
our circular acceptance and evolution
present
intentional
real
i love you

this hurts
my fingers shake
my breath chokes me
forever proud that you are my dad

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i don’t even know

how long it’s been. haven’t been counting days haven’t counted backwards on the calendar. haven’t bothered to reread my own words. haven’t been missing you

the five senses

your blue eyes and crooked lippy smile which i inherited that tiny soft bristle brush for your basically bald head the white corvette a campfire cards

love

what did falling in love feel like to you actual falling a new winter sweater a blood flutter did you question its science or were you

noise

sometimes the wind the waves muffle and drown my memories sometimes the wind the waves magnify and amplify the sound of your voice and clearing

the theatre

this is  a silent film flickering  catching  starting over emptiness surrounding such a blinding contrast ahead of us shared stories  captured images disconnected nonsensical we

Twins

It isn’t easy being a twin.   Others considered us as one two-part person,  while our parents saw,  in our conspiring, four or more.