Eve Rounds

crying on the phone with casey a bcbs rep

accessing my vision, mobility and life saving drug is a greater challenge than the MS itself.

ONE .5mg pill / day

forever

or until

it is no longer effective

meaning

i’ve had a relapse.

CRY

gilenya has been my very high maintenance friend since the end of 22shots. with a 65% hope of preventing further brain body damage “gia” currently costs over 90 THOUSAND DOLLARS  a year. according to my speciality pharmacy alliancewalgreensprimerx – whatever the fuck they call themselves now.

5 YEARS … CALL HOLD FAX CALL CALL CALL CALL HOLD HOLD TRACK CALL HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD TRANSFER HOLD CALL FAX SIGN WAIVE PRIVACY FAX CALL HOLD HOLD HOLD GIVEUP CALL CALL SUBMIT CALL CALL HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD HOLD CRY

i pay for health insurance. i eat obnoxiously healthy. i runbikeclimbtrain danceatweddings. and still                                                                                                                                                                            CRY

Twins

It isn’t easy being a twin.   Others considered us as one two-part person,  while our parents saw,  in our conspiring, four or more.  

should.

dark morning darkness woke up crying i now embrace the word should. it’s a simple truth. my dad should be with me on my   

27 days ago

i lost you so suddenly too suddenly your blue eyes in a constant state of near tear because you loved life giving us so much

haiku ish

in this direction waves break to the right of me reversing my own current

.no . title .. here …

your ……. face against the bruised air between my quiet mind and the raging storm …. panic .. desire …….. pain and wishful logic slowly …