she had forgotten why she’d even driven west this morning
so she turned herself about and headed east
she had forgotten why she parked the car
at this dead end
so she fled the scene in an alarming ascent leaving
half of herself at the avocado farm part way up the ridge
while the other half forged ahead to the horse springs
each overlook was a chance to observe her abandoned self
at a helicopter’s height
a chance to see
the she that was no longer her
those who loved and searched for her
couldn’t possibly love this her
and now those very same couldn’t possibly love that other her
besides
who was even who
her kin
one speechless one furious
searching half body half mind themselves
fully helpless
choosing to never find either of the hers
and certainly not
the theirs
