Eve Rounds

22 shots – begins & ends


i am hopeful. always. i am grateful. always. the fear is present. always.

for one third of any given day i am distraught and enraged. for another third of that very same day i am rather chipper. for the final third, i find myself on the outskirts of both ends.

this triptych existence has become the norm for me. and unfortunately, the norm still hurts. it drags, pushes, drowns, and pokes fun. i can sprint fairly fast, my heart pumping in sync with my own optimistic footsteps. suddenly a familiar and uninvited competitor runs alongside me. the hot the blind the numb. i’m forced to slow my pace and cool down. such is MS life.

i was pretty fucking stupid to think that completing 22 shots would cure my paranoia. my insomnia. my depressive states.  because it didn’t. what it did do, was harness my fear and catapult my anger into something creatively productive. something i could recognize. something i have always needed in my life. creation.

what began as a completely narcissistic approach to art and a sort of amateur psychotherapy, has turned into something.

and as an homage to the organic nature of the 22 shots process, i begin to write…


It isn’t easy being a twin.   Others considered us as one two-part person,  while our parents saw,  in our conspiring, four or more.  


dark morning darkness woke up crying i now embrace the word should. it’s a simple truth. my dad should be with me on my   

27 days ago

i lost you so suddenly too suddenly your blue eyes in a constant state of near tear because you loved life giving us so much

haiku ish

in this direction waves break to the right of me reversing my own current

.no . title .. here …

your ……. face against the bruised air between my quiet mind and the raging storm …. panic .. desire …….. pain and wishful logic slowly …